My Life Update: What’s going on with my Anxiety and Depression...
- Zykia Hannah
- Apr 24, 2020
- 2 min read
As everyone may know that I suffer from depression and anxiety. I’ve had it for about 2 years now. Back in February I went to a place called “PHP” to get help. Btw “PHP” stands for “Partial Hospitalization Program”. PHP was helping me some but not as much. So about 2 weeks later I had to go to Inpatient. I was inpatient for 5 days and the first two days was awful. I was crying and mad because I wanted to go home and I couldn’t. But I was able to see my parents and after those two days it started to go by faster.
When I left inpatient I went back to PHP. Honestly I like PHP better than Inpatient because it was about 40 of us and I didn’t want to talk about my problems and personal things that I got going on. In PHP it was about 15 of us and I could talk about anything. I felt safe in PHP and everyone was so nice🥺💕. I was finally around people that go through the same thing that I go through. We all laughed together, cried together and everything, we was like a family.
About 4 weeks ago I had go moved to “IOP” and IOP i’d basically that i’m doing better and I don’t have to meet with my doctor no more. Also that same week was when I had got discharged. I was sad that I was leaving because I made a lot of friends and I had stepped out my comfort zone to talk to more people. I also made a best friend while I was in there and her name is Ava. Ava is super nice and very funny!
Fast forward to today. So everyone know that we’re on quarantine and can’t go nowhere and do nothing. So this whole thing is causing my anxiety to go sky high and my depression to increase again. My anxiety has always been high and I think it has gotten worse. But my depression I think it’s increasing again. I just want to be happy again. I’m also scared because I haven’t been to school since February and this is my senior year and i’m just scared that I might now graduate on time because I had to leave to get help for my anxiety and depression😔. But my mental health is very important!! That comes first before anything!
I try to think positive and try my best at everything that I do but it’s always like nothing goes right for me. But I will continue to pray and hope everything will be alright and pray that this anxiety and depression will be gone! I’m also ready for this virus to go away so everything can go back to being normal 😫!! But this was just a update about me and how i’m doing ❤️.
Also Here’s a link to listen to positive affirmations every morning ✨:
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